Looking back @ 2009.....;
Is the last day of 2009... so sianz to stay in e office till 530... no half day.. cant take time off... hated 2009... is a bad yr for me... endless of quarrels, arguements.. be it home or office... Job scope change... received all sorts of left over work frm others to leave me to die.. n got blamed when things gone wrong... no pay increment this yr.. even more sianz.. been quarrelling @ home so often for e past few mths.. hated it.. u never think of e intention when i said things. is like we r drifted further n further apart... controlling me over these n that.. all goals set for 2009 were not achieved. holidays, licence, studies... all not achieved... sigh... hope 2010 will b a better yr bah....
Thursday, December 31, 20093:11 PM
3 more days to go;
another 3 more days and he will be back! waiting for him to come home...
although we had an unpleasant 2 wks, but still, i look forward to his return. these 2 wks showed me something.. i sort of unknowingly lost the trust from you again.. trust of having guy frens ard.. this always happened when i met new frens at new company... when i get to know new frens.. especially guys. i know my stand.. and i truly know where u stand in my heart. but what can i do to make u not have this fear forever? I do need frens too... but at the end of the day.. i dont go overboard.. n of cos i will tell my new frens my status. there's nothing to hide..
almost everyday, i'll rush home from work. reason being.. i know i have a responsiblity at home waiting for me. i wont forget about it de lor.. though sometimes i really wish i can go out and do not have to rush for time...
I'm so tired.. having slept at 12 almost everyday, and waking up at 6plus.. shag....
sometimes will just hope darius dun exist.. at least for now...
i need a break.....
and how nice... cant buy a new phone.. damn sianz.. want to change phone also cannot....
Saturday, September 12, 200912:33 AM
what an unlucky me!! :(;
Its been a terrible week for me for the past weeks.
He went for his reservist and will only be back on 15th morning... though you are far away, it seems that we still can quarrel. sigh.. What have I done to make you feel so insecure? What should I do to make you feel better?? I read from 1 post (i lost the url, so cant copy the whole para here), something about calling the other half to find out where he/she is. And the best ans that your partner will want to know, is that you are a gd gal/boy staying at home and not going anywhere. SOmething like that lah... really cant remember le.. till i get to read that person's blog again bah...
But seriously, as a couple, the most impt thing is basic trust, and not to know where you are only...
Anyway, getting tied with my life le... having to rush to fetch darius home, "wrestle" with him for an hr or so... And cant let him take a short nap in the evening, thus have to keep him awake throughout. if not, he wont slp early and i have to stay awake with him till 12 plus.... And for this, i have to tolerate his screaming, shouting and all.. I'm turning deaf soon... And he's not scare of me anymore... scolded him, he can shout back at me... And I remember, i cant beat him...
And the next suay thing? My phone spoiled.. How Nice!!!! The speaker blow again.. My previous SE phone also got the same prob. sigh... Havent thought of what phone to buy yet.. Damn sianz.. And I can upgrade my plan at end oct, if not have to pay the penalty. But cant wait for that long lor... have a phone cant call out to listen calls? den whats the pt of paying for free incoming calls and 300 min free outgoing calls?? Damn sianz...
And also, I failed my TP.. Even sianz.. Just when i thought i can passed, i have to strike kerb, not once, not twice, but thrice.. how 'lucky'... Anyway, passed or not, i get no comfort from him.. reason being,he's very tired and bz that wk... :(
I think better stop here on my family matters before i got arrow behind my back.. dunno who are the 1 that read my blog...
Monday, September 07, 200910:36 PM
Darius is 9 mth old;
Darius can actually hold his milk bottle on his own already.. Didnt realised that. He is just lazy lor... den we stupid always hold his milk bottle for him... -.-!!
he can even use 1 hand to hold lor...
drinking his milk while watching tv...
Another 3 more mths, Darius will be 1 yr old already...
Counting down to:
Driving Test
Moving house
Darius 1st birthday
Taiwan trip ( can i go this time round? )
Tuesday, August 11, 200911:52 PM
How??;
I want to pick up the books and take up Bachelor course... But... the amt I could take from bank for study loan is only 6 times of my pay, which is not even enough to cover all my modules for a single major, let alone double major lor. I will be short of at least $6.6k (for single major), and not inclusive of the bridging programme that I must take.
I need a guarantor but muz be some1 from my immediate family (for POSB Study Loan). My parents' monthly income is even less den me. And he got debts, I scare the bank will not approve lor.
How How How?? Will this dream of mine be swept under the carpet and not being able to fulfil??
Sigh....
Thursday, July 23, 200911:21 PM
1st anniversary;
Tuesday, July 21, 200912:20 AM
;
The worse is over. I survive the last few days of babysiting.. Yeah...
Went shopping on Thursday and Friday and Sunday.
Thursday went Tampines Mall, Century Square and Tampines 1 to walk ard and had dinner at Seoul Garden. The viarieties are so limited lor. Then to Giant, as he wants to cook on Friday. But instead of grocery shopping, we ended up at Sea view to meet up with Candy as she wants to see Darius. Went off at ard 11pm as Darius is dead tired. Darius kick a big fuss when he reach home as we need to change him and feed him, disturbing him from sleeping. He finally went back to slp after 12 plus, after much coaxing him and causing his father almost want to kill him. Haha..
Thought he will wake up late the next morning, but he woke up at 8 plus in the morning. It seems that his body clock already been registered to differentiate weekdays and weekend. He always wake up early like 7 - 8 plus on weekdays and can sleep till 9 plus almost 10 on weekend. Went Giant after feeding him to buy our grocery since didnt buy anything the nitez before. Darius was still tired after the yesterday's shopping lah... He slept for at least 3hrs in the afternoon. He hadnt had such a long afternoon nap for quite sometime. Always slping for half hr to 1 hr nap only. 4 plus went out to Vivo to shop. Darius throw tantrum today. Guess he was very tired. As usual, kick a big fuss when wants to slp. He wont throw tantrum when he's outside, only at home. But this time round, he was crying and screaming as he wants to slp. At vivo city. His daddy's face turn black when he cant coax him to slp. 2nd time his daddy feel like killing him.. Haha... Finally he fall asleeep. Went to White Dog Cafe for dinner when Darius is asleep. Didnt enjoy my dinner there. The food wasnt nice, except the appetizer. The salmon pasta is tasteless lor....
Saturday is stay home day. When Darius heard his Grandpa call him over at the window when they came back, he immediately scream and was jumping up and down. He is damn excited lah.. Didnt see his grandparents for 3 days. And that means.... I'm freed... Haha....
Went Orchard today. Totally hate to go town on weekend. Is damn crowded and totally no mood to shop.
1 yr.... And Darius is 8 mth old already. Time passes... Till now, u still get jealous easily... Whenever I change a job and get to meet new guys whom can click with me, you get jealous. This time, my status is diff. I'm MARRIED TO YOU ALREADY!!! Yet you still get jealous when I can chat everything under the sun with this colleague. Sigh... I really dunno what to say lah....
So many pple want to babysit Darius ah? He is cute in appearance lah, but when feeding him, changing nappy for him, coaxing him to slp, you will really feel like raising 2 hands up to surrender. As what I always told my Mother, he is only cute when he is asleep. So peaceful and guai... Haha...
Sunday, July 19, 200910:08 PM
