i love pooh bear...

So dead...;

I am so dead tired.... Imagine working more than 10hrs everyday? With loads and loads of things to do..... Working in the banking industry is definitely a no-no for me. That I am sure. I just cant take the damn fast-pace environment and pple having such high expectation of u gaining the skills required by u in less den a mth, and throwing everything for u to do. And the great thing is that, ur partner doesn't seems want to help u. I was like, "wat the hell?" Cant u just help me with a case or 2 out of 5 or more other things to do? In the end I just gave up n take my own sweet time to do. As I know for sure she will not lift a hand to help me. And I finished my work at 10pm and left ytd.

Took a half day off to go for an interview. The pay was much lower den what the bank offer me, but the working hrs are much more reasonable. I actually wanted to stay on in the bank for another 3 mths to earn enough b4 I left. But after much discussion with my mother n him, their answer to me was, no point staying since I do not have the interest in this work. No ot pay n damn long working hrs. Though u can claim taxi fare, but took a taxi home from there cost only less den $4. Not worth it at all.... And having to keep skipping my dinner. And my stomach is not in the right state now. I was diagnosed with gastric earlier when I keep experiencing stomachache. Might be due to long term not eating properly and eating at inappropriate timing bah... Remember I used to eat 1 meal a day for quite a long period of time? haha...

Sometimes I really dunno what I really want in my life. I want to go on study, but also will think why do I want to study till so high level? Is there a need to do tat? Am I financially able to do tat? What kind of job do I really want in my life? Went to MDIS to check out on their courses. Went to ask for the degree course for tourism n hospitality. The modules are interesting and is a popular course now due to the IR opening in 2009. But as I was browsing thru the net again in MDIS website, I saw a course much more related to my diploma - degree in business management. Now, I fickle-minded... If I really work as a business analyst, this course will be useful to me. If I intend to go to hotel line, F&B line;hospitality and tourism is more relevant.

Life is full of choices... What do I really want?

Thursday, March 29, 20079:00 PM

Weekend coming to an end loh;

Is Sunday again.... Tmr gotta start work loh.... Sianz ah.... I am still trying very hard to understand my job scope lor.... My mentor threw everything to me to learn, although I start work for only 2 wks plus. & she expect me to know EVERYTHING & KNOW HOW TO DO LOR... LAst thursday and friday I was left alone to do my work and I made so many mistakes and keep kena said by her that I never jot down my notes well and wasnt paying attention to her while she was teaching me. But how can she expect me to know so many things in such a shortest time? What you see & how you do it is totally different lor... And I have to race with time and speed up my speed when I am not even familiar with the things I'm doing.... Sometimes can really do until feel like crying lor.... Everyday goes to work seems like a big challenge to me to remind myself what I have done or learnt b4 and apply it at the right time.
There's another new gal who joined just 1 wk earlier den me, and she can sit on her own to do the things. Know why? Cuz she was only asked to do a small amt of work, her mentor juz want her to get familiar with 1-2 things 1st and den increase the things she need to do. Whereas I'm been thrown to do all the things, which my mentor said is expected of me. Sigh... Wonder will I pass my probation period or not?

Anyway, slack my weekends away... Never go anywhere. Just stay at home to watch vcds, except going to his house on Sat morning to slack and watch colic... Just dun feel like going anywhere anyway.... Maybe I'm so used to working in weekends when I was still at palms. Thus, I dread weekends.... But also maybe because I have been working my weekdays away till I dun feel like going anywhere and just wanna slack on a weekend.. I have been finishing work so late everyday.. The earliest is 8.30pm. And the latest is 10pm. So I guess banking line is not a good job at all.... You work so hard just for the basic pay you gonna get every mth. No OT pay for u!

Sunday, March 18, 20074:38 PM

Working life is never good....;

Gosh!!! I just started work for 1 wk plus only and I missed sch terribly now... My working environment is stressful and you have to bear the long working hrs.... I have been finishing work at 8 plus, 9pm for the past few days. And I have to absorbed so many things in just a day.. That is Impossible for me lor, Cuz I learnt things slowly de.... I can do this thing today, but forgotten the steps the very next day.... Gosh.... When can I ever be familiar with my job scope n do things independently leh?? I think very hard cuz I keep forgetting..... URgh....

The only day to rest will be weekends. But, wkends is his working days.... We are meeting lesser n lesser now, compared to past. In actual fact, We have not been going dating , shopping for a very long time loh.... We can always meet up for a short breakfast b4 both of us went to work. And phone calls are subjected to our free time. Haha... But this will never drift us apart....

Went for dinner at his working place ytd for dinner. This is the 2nd time I went there, but my 1st time to patronize there.... Is really a nice place for dinner. But some of the food are not to my likings bah....... Cant go there so often or I will be bankrupt. Haha.... Once in a blue moon to pamper myself is enough.. :)

Weekend is ending soon, and it's gonna be a start of a new wk again..... Sigh..... Once my probation end, gonna apply leave and go for a holiday....... And come 19th, I can use my citibank's citicard..... Haha.. No $$ inside so cant use now..... But is a very nice card to see. Haha

Finished watching 花样少年少女 , the ending sucks. But overall is a nice show lah... Next show will be转角遇到爱.....

Sunday, March 11, 20074:32 PM