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My future?? Heading where??????;

My father asked me this question a few days ago,"You wanna continue study, go University?". This makes me start thinking again..... I thought my parents all along wish that I can quickly finish my diploma course and get a permanent full time job to help in our household expenses. Thus, I always pushed back my dream of continuing studying and thinking of what kind of career I want when I grad. But now, I really wish to go back to study.

BUT..... To study what? Supply chain management? Logistic? HR?? Not very sure... But my MAIN problem is cash! I need to pay back the $6,000+ that I have chalked up from this 3-yr diploma course. I no longer want to put studies as my full time and working as my part time. Instead, I have to put work as my full time. But I dunno where and how to start. I'm in a total lost.

Solutions:
1) To have a company to sponsor me to study and in return, I signed a bond with the company. But not now for my case as I cant find a full time job till next yr feb.

2)To get a loan from bank. But by then, I will be full of debts,old and new,both for studies.(CPF for current, and bank loan for future studies if I take up. And the interest from the bank loan.)

3)Get govt scholorship. Kinda impossible as my result is not very gd....What I heard from my father is that I can take a govt loan, but once I grad, I must find a govt job to repay the debt. Sounds reasonable, BUT, I dunno how to go abt doing it.

4)Stop dreaming, and find a full time job in Feb next yr. Think abt studying again when I am financially stable and independent. Then, I have to think of what kind of job is suitable for me now...

SIgh...... Vexed......

Went for a shopping spree recently... But for once and no more shopping spree in the next couple of wks/mths. Bought a dorothy perkin's sweater and a skirt from Esprit and a shoes from far east. Head to toe, spent abt $100 le bah.... Enough le... Muz continue my savings, cannot let it stop half way!

Sunday, November 26, 200612:41 AM

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The weekend always end so fast... And tmr I will have to go back to work le... Sianz..... And guess tmr onwards shall take 1 copy of "Today" to work... Why?? Cuz definitely there's little things for me to do now... The staff who is on leave for 3wks will be back tmr.. And there's office politics going on... So if there is nothing for me to do, means really nothing to do... Just have to wait for time to past. Sigh..... 1 mth has passed.... Another 3 months to go..... And I'm still thinking of what kind of job to look for after this attachment.

Spent Friday, Saturday night and Sunday morning at his house. Love to slp beside him.... The last time was during the chalet in August. Guess this will be the last time for this yr loh... The next time will be next Feb hopefully.... Abandoned my taiwan trip le... Guess wont be saving enough to go next yr... I need at least $2000 cash.... So maybe go neighbouring country for a short trip. But time time still planning. Cuz I finished my attachment on the 10th... Forgot which date have to go back sch for and of attachment briefing. Den 18th feb is CNY le... So dunno go before or after CNY. if go after CNY, den my job hunt leh???? Sigh...... Dunno......

I now really hate Nokia le.... Bought my N6131 in july and it has been going to Nokia care centre for 3-4 times.... And always for the same problem... The battery life is so damn short. After I bought it for a few days, I took it to nokia care and ask for a check, they said there isnt any problem to the battery but still change a new battery for me.. Den 1 mth later, I have to go back there again. Again, new battery is changed for me. 3rd time I go back there, they asked to check my phone. N my phone is "hospitalised" for 3 days. Took back n told me is the battery spoilt. What the hell!!!! Say so many things but the staff is like mumbling to himself, cant even hear what he is saying. FOrget it! 1 wk later, I'm back to nokia care AGAIN!!! And my phone is "hospitalised" AGAIN!!! After 2 days, they called and said my phone have to be kept longer as they are changing some components inside. Now den say is my phone's problem. But why said there IS NOTHING WRONG WITH MY PHONE IN THE 1st place????? Got back my phone on Friday. And told them to pray hard that the same problem wont exist again, if not i request to change a NEW phone! Casing retained, the rest all change! But today, I charge my phone last nitez and woke up to find that the phone display incompatible charger and my phone was not fully charged till now!! In another word, I didnt even see the word "battery full" being displayed. Damn!! Because of this phone, I cant keep all my smses, I have to save all pics and mp3 on my memory card. I lost all my smses. And I have to waste my time going back and forth nokia care centre. Every time after work have to spend the time waiting at nokia care. And is getting irritating.... Really dunno wat to do with this problematic phone. Everytime change a new phone, so problematic de......

You do not need to have so many friends.... 1 close friend is more den enough..... Friends do not necessary have to keep smsing or meet to go out. Once awhile meet up for a long chat will still be able to keep the friendship going. But there is some friends that will have nothing to chat even after not meeting up for such a long time... Dunno why...

Sunday, November 19, 20065:10 PM

Is friday night!!!!;

Yes! Is friday le... And tmr do not have to go to work... Yeah! Can slp all I want loh... But guess may be will wake up early in the morning.... Maybe because I scared I overslept, I always wake up at 6am instead of 6.30am... Sigh.... Can't wait for this attachment to end.... Counting down to 13 more wks..... Looking forward to 10th Feb, but also at the same time scare lah... Cuz by then I'm jobless again le.......

Nothing much to blog anyaway.... Just know that I keep making mistakes in the company... If not type the address at the wrong place, or worse, type wrong item and the item actually sent out to the customer........ -_-!! Everyday see so many grps of numbers(sometimes can be up to 500 grp of num per entry),thus, my eyes see stars and then type wrong item bah....

Anyway, Due to the mc on monday, I still owe this company 1 working day.... But they never mentioned anything asking me to return that 1 working day to them... Haha... Cant be bothered.

Shall stay home and watch vcds again this wkend.... Saves money.... Not earning much, so go out less.... Anyway, got nothing to buy...

Tmr still have to go back sch to collect my new matric card.... Really dun understand y we need the new matric card since all of us are out for attachment.... And by the time we come back sch, is to wait for our grad cert only... So wat is the use of the new matric card?? No idea....

Friday, November 10, 20068:47 PM

Happy ANNIVERSARY!!;

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!!!!! Yeah! Its our 1 yr anniversary ytd(6/11/06)... So fast, 1 yr has passed.... No celebration though, as both of us are BROKE... With celebration or not, is fine with me... As long as we know that after 1 whole yr, 365 days, and we are still together, as loving as before can le... Seeing him every single day after work and staying home to watch vcds at home is better den anything else... We are not the couples who go all the way out to think of interesting ways to go on date or to celebrate our anniversary..... For the past 12 mths, how many mthly anniversary have we celebrated anyway?? Haha... See, anniversary is not so impt afterall.. Is the love between us that matters alot to us.... Looking for our 2nd yr anniversary... Hope our dream will come thru... :)

Was on MC from work ytd... Was travelling to work half way, in the end make a U-turn and go back to tampines to see a doctor after heeding his advice. Was feeling giddy all the time.... Been like that since sunday le... Talking abt sunday.... I scare the hell outta him... Went to rent vcds and in the end, half way thru, I feel terrible all over... Worse! Was seeing stars and I almost black out in front of him.... The feeling was terrible... And ytd on the way to work, the giddiness is back again... Thus went to see the doctor... The doctor said might be due to standing too long(like in the mrt train).... Hmm.. Mayb I always stand from tampines to tanjong pagar and way back home... And the train is always over crowded... Tats why bah..... And my blood pressure is low.... Thus, the giddiness.... But because of ytd mc, I need to work 1 more day back to the company... Which may be 2 sat... Sianz....

Hearing form my 2 frens work experience, guess my attachment is not as bad as them bah.... Should be better than them alot.... My job only requires me to sort out invoices and filing and occasionally data entry... Nothing much .... That's why is boring...... Guess, before the end of attachment, must interview some of the pple there to understand the business processes so that I would know what to write in my report. If not die... And anyway, I'm suppose to take over the job of the pregnant lady who had already went on maternity leave since last wk. But the pple there are too busy to teach me n there are far too many things that I dunno.... Thus, 2 of the admin staffs are doing 2 person's job at the same time... And 1 person have so much responsibility... Sometimes will feel guilty that I cant be of any help and got nothing to do sometimes...

I guess I'm not suitable to office job at all?? I dun like the working hrs...... Damn! Really used to those irregular hrs le... Sigh....... And I dun like to be sitting in the office for the whole o 8hrs or 9 hrs if lunch in... Hate dragging myself to work every morning.... So stressed up over having to wake up so early that I always woke up in the middle of the night thinking its passed 6am le.. Didnt slp well at all.....

Tuesday, November 07, 20068:58 PM